he reads about finance

that's not me.

it's nice getting to listen to them talk about their boys. how old they can be at times, how they fall asleep expectedly at the most inopportune moments. how they let them fall asleep only to wake them up with their arguments, arguments not remembered in the morning.

i'm at the weirdest point right now. i find that i'm not really interested in anyone they way i once was in him. i lapse into ex-mode and flail around and now i'm done with that and i'm just wearing jeans and flannel and smoking. i wake up regularly at eleven. i eat cereal for most meals and think.

what're you doing? and another calls me and it would be fun and it would be hot and all that and whatnot and whatever and i just don't feel like showering and wow lady gaga is playing right now lovegame and it asks do you want love do you want fame are you in the game?

and i don't really think that i am. i miss the way you call me baby.

fuck.